It has taken me well over a year to pen this letter. This is a first draft as I'm sure I'll change it 8,000 times before I actually send it. I took some thigns from my essay to help at to this letter because despite how I feel it's so hard to write knowing that OMG...she could actually read this.

With that said...




Dear Shonda,

Thank you. I have sat here for hours, days, weeks and months trying to think of the perfect things to say to you. I wanted this to stand out, I wanted this to mean something, but right now? Thank you seemed perfect. I can guess that right now you're receiving tons of angry fan mail, people writing in red pen...why did you hook up Gizzie? Oh lordy, why did you do that to Bang? Or better yet, HOW COULD YOU DO THAT TO DEREK AND MEREDITH? This, I promise, is not one of those letters. Far from it actually.

Thank you for creating your Seattle Grace universe. It may be fictional, but for once in my life I feel like I fit in somewhere. I don't know where I could begin explaining how much exactly your show has done for me, there are so many stories to tell and my mind is a blur trying to come up with the perfect things to say to you. To me, Grey’s Anatomy is not just a show. It never has been "just a show" for me. For the average individual it may be a simple source of entertainment, enjoyed over cheap snacks and discussion. For me, it is far from just a source of entertainment, it is a welcome and treasured part of my life and who I am.

I got into Grey's Anatomy at a pretty 'dark and twisty' time in my life. My father had just passed away, I was on the verge of ending a long relationship with the father of my children and everything seemed to be going wrong in my life. I was at my Mom's house one night and she was watching the episode "It's the end of the world..." I sat down and watched it...and I never stopped watching. The character's dragged me and pulled me in. I felt like I belonged there in the walls of Seattle Grace, donning my own powder blue scrubs and lab coat, passing by the on call room and wondering who might be in there and who they might be in there with. Each character grabbed my hand at one point and I felt a connection to them all in their own ways. From Meredith and her daddy issues to Izzie laying on the bathroom floor, I found myself in every pair of eyes that looked back at me through the screen. Thursday nights quickly became the one day a week where I could escape the drama of my own life and for an hour find my sense of belonging. I found something that made me smile, made me laugh, even made me cry....but the point is, your show makes me feel...and sometimes in my life I shut myself off and your show is what opens me up again, gets me on my feet and helps me to get moving again.

I’m scary and damaged, but deep down I really would love to be bright and shiny. Your show helps me find ways to achieve that, even if it’s just for that hour on Thursday nights. You have created something I can grab on to, something consistent for someone like me who doesn't always have that consistency. Sure, someday it WILL end, but I will never stop watching. It'll be a frequent partner to my DVD player and the characters will live on in my heart and mind. It will be like saying goodbye to close friends and knowing you'll never see them again, and all you've got is the memories. It's observing these characters in their own life changing experiences that help me to get through my own. There were many times when my life paralleled situations characters were going through, I felt them and it made everything so much more real. It helped me heal my wounds as I watched them struggle with their own. Its Meredith shutting herself off and me realizing, you can't always run away when things get tough. It's George not telling Callie what he did, because I know now that the truth is painful but in the end, it has to come out, sooner rather than later. It's Burke leaving Cristina, because he didn't want to keep changing her. I learned that you can't force people to be something they are not.

I really cannot say thank you enough. You have created something so wonderful...something that has left an amazing, profound impact on my life. Your characters are so raw, so real...that I feel their pain and anguish and it helps me better identify my own issues and how to approach them.

My dream is to be on your show. Of course, many people think this is silly and I'm sure when the show ends, I'll find a new dream and I will move on if I never get the chance. But it's true, it is my dream because even if I'm laying on a stretcher in the background of some random episode....Seattle Grace feels like home to me, and at least then I'll truly be at peace, even if only for a moment and that peace will inspire me to keep going on a regular basis. I would love to be on your show, so someday if you ever have need for a 5'10" twenty four year old that sometimes bears resemblance to Katherine Heigl, I'm your girl. To some people, it's a waste of emotion or even a waste of time, but to me, it's everything.

From the bottom of my heart, thank you, thank you, thank you. Thank you for creating a show that helps me find myself a little bit more each episode, that motivates me to get out of bed, even when its the last thing I want to do...Thank you for creating a show that has given me so many wonderful people to look up to and has introduced me to so many great friends who are also fans of your show. Thank you for simply being you and following your own dreams and achieving them, because you inspire me to do the same.

Love always,
Your faithful fan,
Sara-Anne

aww Lexie that was awesome!!! :wub: :sob:
that should definitely stand out from all the other ones ;)
oh and i don't know if you meant to do this on purpose or not for effect, but you said "There were many times when my life paralleled situations characters were going through, I felt them and it made everything so much more real. It helped me heal my wounds as I watched them struggle with their own." twice.

ahh that's really beautiful! You're really a good writer and I really think you have to send this to shonda (with or without some changes)

omg sara! thats sooo great! :) it made me cry a little :(
seriously I bet this stands out more than all the rest! I love how well you put your feelings into words..i cant do that to save my life! but anyways..if she doesnt write back or aknowledge you for this...I WILL BE SO ANGRY! :angry: lol

Thank you so much guys :) I'm way nervous about sending it and thank you Fantashley for pointing that out I fixed it :)

:sob: I loved reading this and I'm sure Shonda will too!!! Im so proud of you for completing it!! :wub:

how come everything you write makes me want to cry because it's so good and from the heart? :wub:

Sara I always find myself coming back to read this..haha its amazing!

I mailed the letter today guys. I found two addy's to mail her at so I sent out two letters in hopes she'll read it! WISH ME LUCK!!!!

Good Luck! :D :wub:

I just read it and it is so beautiful Sara! Youve said it all in such an amazingly true way!
You made me sort of weepy! Lol ^_^

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
GOOD LUCK!

Good Luck!! :backflip:

I read it and I'd be surprised if she DIDN't reply.

Thank you :)

Good Luck! *gives four leaf clover*

I'm so proud of you! You just sent it! I really hope she'll read it and even reply to it! If she doesn't, she is crazy!

SHE WROTE ME BACK YOU GUYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WHAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG WHAT DID SHE SAY!!!!!!????????

Yeah I wanna know what she said :o

:grouphappy: CONGRATULATIONS LEXIEBELLE! :grouphappy:

You did gooooood sis and im PROUD! i just knew she would cause she HAD to! :claps: :backflip: :lol: :D


B) SARA=WAY COOL B)

OMG THAT'S AMAZING!!! I'M SO HAPPY FOR YOU!!! OMG OMG OMG!!! :claps: :claps: :claps: :claps: :claps: :claps: :claps: :claps: :claps: :o :o :o :o :o :o :o

In a nuthsell she said something like thank you for the kind words and continuted support of greys...

SHE READ MY FREAKING LETTER.

YEAH :party: now I hope Oprah will read our letters too!

haha yeah we'll see if she's as good as everyone makes her out to be...

that is so awesome!!


:ninja: :ninja:

double ninja for you!

SQUEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

OMGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


amazing..I love shonda!! yayyyy SaRa!! :claps: :claps: :claps: :claps: :claps: :claps: :claps: :claps: :claps: :claps: :claps: :claps: :claps: :claps: :claps: :claps: :claps:

Wooh! That's so awesome! Wanna maybe let me borrow that autographed picture sometime? ;) haha

wooooooooooooooo! that IS FRIKIN AWSOME! :backflip: :backflip: :backflip: :backflip: :backflip: :backflip: :backflip: :backflip: :backflip: :backflip: :backflip: :backflip:
OMG i cant get over it! Congratulations sara! :D :D :D :D

:P :P :P :P :P :P :P :P :P :P :P :P--hey isaiahs there too

Wooow - Such a lovely letter :wub:

isn't that so cool seeing your own name and address on the envelope in Shonda's handwriting too?!?

HAHAHA You have no idea, sometimes I dont even think its real! I take it out of the folder its in and just stare at it...it makes me smile :)

haha you should write her again and tell her you want to be pen pals

I am actually gonna write her again hahaha

haha sneak some good storylines in there ;)

oh and tell her Ashley said hi. she'll know who you're talking about.

That letter....it made me see so many things. It's good to know she took the time to write back, I think she would have many angry letters if she didn't! Are you going to tell this site what you wrote back to her?

That's so awesome she wrote back! That was a great letter :D