Just a little beginning....that will be more...i hope.......

I know that my English suck but remember it's my third language. :)

Miracle:
Callie was surprised to smell food when she walked through the door.

-Are you cooking?
-No. I'm reheating. Cristina answered with a snickerish voice. I ordered take out yesterday but was too tired to eat, hence the reheating. There's enough for both of us if you're hungry.
-Thank you I'm starving. Callie took of her jacket and started to set the table.- Did you see that the Rosebuds are moving out? she asked her roommate.
-Yea, but if you're last name is Rosebud you should know that you don't survive the big city.
- I'm thinking of buying it..... what do you think?
Cristina looked at her and started to laugh. - You know what? I think that's a great idea. I'd miss you if you moved, but if you're just across the hall you can still cook for me.
They started to eat and didn't say much, but the silence wasn't awkward.
-You're clearly hungry. Cristina hissed looking at Callie eating like she hadn't seen food before. - You're not pregnant are you?
Callie started to laugh - Then it has to be yours cause I haven't had sex in a while.
-Or Hahns, eighter way it's a cardio-baby. They laughed so much that they cried.

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The Rosebud place was great. Two bedrooms and an open kitchen/livingroom. Today she was glad over the trustfund that she had - she rarely used it - but sometimes it was good to have. After signing the contract something happened. She felt calm. She was sitting in Cristinas couch and she started to feel something. First it had been the surprise visit from Mrs O'Malley. Then there was the comment Cristina made. She couldn't be - could she? She had her period the same day that George confessed his infidelity to her, and she had felt it lika a cleansing as they did 100 years ago, and she haven't had sex since....But she was tired, and hungry, and late this time around......She called her OB and she could luckily take her right away.

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-Dr Torres? Are you alright?
-I'm sorry. How? For how long?
-It is possible to have bleedings around the same time as your period should've come. According to your normal cycles you should be about 9 weeks pregnant but to be sure we would have to do a vaginal ultra sound.
Callie couldn't belive it was true. She had wanted a baby so much, when she had her "period" she had felt sad in more than one way and she hadn't known what she was more sad of. Loosing the dream of a baby or her husband.
-This flickering here is the heartbeat.
She saw it... she saw her baby's heart. A Baby.
-You are 11 full weeks and 3 days. Congratulations. Dr Bingley finished the ultra sound and left her to get dressed. When she returned she gave her prints from the ultrasound. - Here are some pictures of your baby.
-Geroge's baby. Callie whispered under her breath.
-Sorry? What did you say?
-Nothing. Nothing. Callie straigthen her back and cleared her throat. Absolutley nothing. This is my baby. I'm going to be a mother.


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Calie decided not to tell anyone before she was 12 full weeks and the risk of a miscarage decreased. But she was puzzled how she could tell George. She had to, but how? He still had the affect on her that speaking to George meant excperience big feelings. Wheather it was love, anger or fury it was always big with George. He would never let her finnish, and say things that made her feal unceratin of herslef, her decisions, anything. She put it of and started to plan her appartment instead. She had it painted white with a photo wallpaper on one wall in the livingroom, with a photo of the wiew from her room at her parents house. And one wall with red wallpaper in her bedroom. The smaller bedroom she used as storage....for now....
It was when she started to unpack some of the boxes that she had had in storage for some years that she found her old books about Anne of Green Gables. She started to read and couldn't put it down. How she had loved those books when she was a kid. That was how she came up with the idea to write a letter to George.

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YAYYYY!!!!

I'm in love already!

I can't wait!!!!

Yaaaay! Callie's pregnant!

:) You're right Mactilda--it is Callieistic!! :) LOL heck yea!

Thank you guys! I'm writing as much as I can :)

just a bit:

George,
I don't know how to say this to you, that's why I'm writing this letter. I'm pregnant with your child. I didn't know until little more than a week ago my self. As I think you understand I am going to have this baby, and you can be as involved as you like. I am not going to keep this from you if you want any part but if you don't want to take part I'd like to know.
Callie


She had tried to write a longer letter, but the second she started to handle anything close to their short marriage she eighter gor teary and sad or angry, so these few lines were the only thing she could scrible down with out the cost of tears. Well some tears had been shred but relativitly speaking. When she had put the letter in an envelope she hesitated when she was about to write an adress. She didn't even know where George lived. SHe knew that he didn't live with Meredith (and his misstress) anymore, but wasn't sure if he had moved back with his mother or found a place of his own. She decided to put it in his locker.... almost like in high school... but with scalpels and higher stakes....

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Callie was nervous. She didn't want to tell anyone before she knew that George know. Why she didn't really know, she didn't owe him anything, but still, she felt that was the way it should be. She would like to tell Erica Hahn, not that they shared much except dart games and witty conversation, but she knew that Hahn had noticed that she had stopped drinking and she was happy, and wanted to share with someone. But the truth to be told she didn't think Erica would see anything positive in the situation, and neighter would Cristina.....but Callie didn't care. She was happy. So be it if she ignored the impact this pregnancy and child would have on her carreer and her life in general.
Callie spotted George walking towards the interns locker room just when she had finnished her shift, and took that as her que to go change and go home. She had no idea how the reaction would be..... if he'd freak out - he probably would - scream at her and blaming her, or just ignore her. She couldnt relax at all. She took a bath, both dissapointed and reliefed that the only sign of her pregnancy was her fuller breasts. She dozed of bit and woke up to feel that the water was cold. She showered and crawled into the bed and picked up "Anne of the Island" from the nightstand. If she got distracted for long enough she'd fall asleep. She didn't - she got hungry. Callie went to the kitchen and took out a youghurt and sat down at the table and continued reading.
Suddenly she heard someone in the corridor. She glanced at the microwave and noticed that it was half past one and that she'd better go to bed again. Just when she passed the front door she thaught she heard George and peeped through the peephole and there he was, he put something infront of her door and walked away.
Callie counted to 200 before opening the door. THere was an envelope with her name on it.

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OMG what did he say????

This is great, Mactilda!!! :D I can't wait for more.

You'll have to wait until tomorrow cause I HAVE to go to bed...

:( *pouts*

I will wait.

a short chapter:

Dear Callie,
There is a million different thaughts running through my head right now and I really don't know what to say or write. I know this wasn't what you imagined when you asked if we could have a baby and belive me when I say that I'm sorry. Oh Callie, I'm so sorry. I know that I have hurt you more than anyone ever should experience, and that I can't take it back.
And now you are carrying my child. Our child. I am glad that you'll give me the opurtunity to be a part of it all, and I do. I want to be involved. I guess I'm still in chock cause my mind is going haywire and I can't seem to make any sense, even to me. I just want you to know that I'm sorry.
George.




Sorry, sorry, sorry. He can write that a million times but it wouldn't take away the pain. Callie thaught to hersellf. What part is he sorry for? For screwing Izzie, for not telling her, for making her pregnant, for preposing?? All of it ? But he did take it better than she thaught, or at least so it seemed.
She went to bed with the envelope i one hand and the letter in the other and some how she fell a sleap.

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*knock, knock*

Callie woke up to the sound of someone knocking at the door. 6.15 - she should be eating breakfast now..... the knocking transformed into large bangs and she could hear Cristina.
-Callie? Are you in there? Wake up!
Callie crawled out of bed and went into the hallway while putting on a robe. There was a book in the hall.... and suddenly she remebered what had happened in the middle of the night.
-yeah, yeah I'm comming. she said trying to collect herself.

-Thank god. Cristina said when she opened the door. I demand that I have a key. What if you had fallen and passed out??
-Please Cristina.... You can have a key, it's not that, but when did you become the worrying kind?
- I don't know... when I realised that I didn't have any coffee and I knew you had and you didn't answer the door maybe... she glared at Callie while she headed for the kitchen.
-Why aren't you dressed? You're on at 7 are you not? Cristina continued.
- Yes mother. I'll get dressed now. Callie couldn't help smiling. Cristina was fun.

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She wasn't worried about George when she and Cristina headed to Seattle Grace. Callie knew that he had today off. She was calm.
-Sooo, what's for dinner tonight? Cristina asked.
Callie smiled. - What do you want dear?
-I want meatballs!!!!
-Italian or Swedish?
-You know how to make both??? Impressed our kid is going to be so happy.
Callie went from happy and giggilie to sad and teary in a blink. Cristina stoped and took her arm to turn her around.
-What Callie?

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Cristina had taken it well. She had made it clear that she wasn't a "baby-person", but as a friend she was there. She hadn't been thrilled to hear that it was George was the father, something about bad DNA.... Callie had told her not to tell anyone else for now, but if someone asked she could confirm.
Erica Hahn on the other hand had been kind enough to enlighten her about all the disadvantages that would come with being a pregnant resident and a seurgeon mother. She had apologized and they had their lunch but there was a changed atmosphere. But Callie had faith in Hahn. She would come around eventually.

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and... a little more :) :


- Hey Cal, Heading home or Joe's? Mark said when they met in the elevator on the way down.
-It's five o'clock.The supermarket. I'm making Swedish meatballs.
Mark looked surprised and amused. - Impressing. Can I come?
-Sure. Why not?. Nothing Mark Sloan did or said surprised Callie anymore. - Can you make it to seven?
-Seven thirty?
-OK, but then you can't be late or we'll start eating without you.
-We? So it's not a romantic Lady and the Tramp dinner?
-I said Swedish meatballs, so no Mark.It'll be me and Cristina and then you.
-That's fine. I've never minded girl on gi
-Bye Mark. Callie interrupted as the elevator opened and pretended to be offended, but she couldnt help smiling.

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Cristina would be late.....or not come at all. Cristina had been babling something about a surgery and Hahn being nice. Callie was starving, but she hated eating alone so she waited for Mark. That is IF he wasn't late. She had just finnished that thaught in her head when she heard a knock on the door.

Mark still looked amused when she opened the door and took the wine bottle that he handed her.
-Welcome Dr. Sloan.
-Thank you Dr Torres. I didn't know what to get. He pointed at the wine. I googled "what to drink to Swedish meatballs" but couldn't find anything. I hope that Californian cabernet sauvignon will do.
-Actually, I was going to serve milk.
-MILK?? What are we? Five? Mark started laghuing but stopped when he entered the kitchen and could see that Callie wasn't joking. - Ohh. Well I'll try everything once.
-Good boy.

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-This is delicious and I agree: milk is the way to go. Mark said pouring more cold milk in his glas.
Callie smiled. -You have milk in your mustach cowboy.
Embaressed Mark wiped his mouth. - So how come you know how to make Swedish meatballs?
-I had a Swedish roommate one year in college.
-Hmm. Did she show you any Swedish movies.
-Yeah, but not the ones you think of, you dirty man. Do you have room for dessert?
-Always.

(bonus: recipe: http://yumsugar.com/171492 I've doubled checked this should give you the real thing ;) )

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Ok Mark HAD surprised her. He had started with the dishes and was loading the dishwasher when she came back from the toilet. He had even put on her apron.
-Do you want coffee?
-No If I'll have coffee now, I can't sleep. But you go ahead if you want to.
-No I'm good.
She looked at the "manwhore" in her apron and felt safe. Mark was a good man, she could trust him with her story. Why wait, just say it.
-Mark I'm 12 weeks pregnant.
-What? That's why you're glowing. That's wonderful. He spontanously huged her.
He was happy for her. She relaxed she let go of her own happieness. - Yes it is. It is strange and with bad timing and awkward but yes it's wonderful.
-Can I be uncle Mark. Please let me be uncle Mark.
-You're not going to lecture me?
-No. You are glowing. You've looked happy the last few weeks. Well yesterday you looked worried but ..
-I didn't know you paid that much attention.
-Have I ever not looked at beautiful women? Mark said with a smiled and hugged her again.

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Poor Callie! All alone with the manwhore :P I really like this!

Uncle Mark! I'm lovin it!! :D

a chort chapter but anyway...


When Callie went to bed, she was calm. She knew she would have to talk to George but it didn't bather her. She would have a long nights sleap and then a doctors appointment before working the late shift. Mark had promissed to get her something else to eat than the some what boring cafeteria food. Mark really was a good friend.

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Callie woke up with an urge to go to the bathroom. When she crawled back in bed she wasn't at all tired.She picked up her book, but didn't feel like reading. Calie went to the kitchen and took something to eat and started her laptop and she ended up watching silly videos at Youtube.
She tahught she heard Cristina talking to someone, even though Callie couldn't hear the words, she could hear that Cristina wasn't pleased.

Callie heard a knock on the door and wondered why Cristina didn't use her key. She opened the door and there was Cristina, with her ex-husband.
-I found this sorry excuse for a man sitting in the hallway and if you want me to throw him out I will. Christina said in a "trying to be calm even though I'm upset"-kind of wat.
-Callie I just didn't want to wake you and I didn't hear anything from you at all yesterday so I just wanted to talk to you.
-Did she give you permission to talk? Cristina interrupted.
-It's OK Cristina. I'll talk to you George. Callie said and she could feel the tiredness that she hade seeked moments ago flood her.
-So you don't want me to kick his ass? Cristina said and George looked at her as if she was a crazy person.
-If I wanted to I could kick his ass myself. But thanks it's nice to have someone willing to fight my battles for a change.....
Cristina didn't really get the undertone in the last sentens but was satisfied with Callie's answer.
-OK I'm off to the hospital now. And you, she looked at George, you behave.

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George and Callie entered the appartment in silence.
-Do you want some coffee? Callie asked.
-Only if you're having.
-I'm having some red tea if you want that.
-Yes please, I've never tried that.
Both of them knew that this would be an uncomfterable talk and neighter one of them wanted to take the first step.

Callie served the tea and took a deep breath.
-I really don't know what to say George. If you want to be a part of this I'll let you but you have to realise that with our history it's not going to be a picnic - for eighter one of us.
-I know that. George looked at her. Maybe we should see a counslor or something?
-I am NOT getting back together with you.
-Nonono I didn't mean it like that...It's just... well I know you must have many unpleasent things to say to me that you haven't and I would like to tell you things that I am afraid to tell.
-WHAT?
-I just thought that it might be a good idea to talk to eachother with a third party present. George broke eyecontact and loked down in his teacup.
Callie didn't say anything. Maybe it wasn't such a horrible idea. There was one or two things she have wanted to say to him for a while.
-okej, I'm sorry. We could do that.
-Good. I know I've done a hundred things wrong, but I'm.......well....
-What?
-Nevermind...
-What George?
He hesitated for a while -Well.... I'm going to be a father and I want to be a good one.
Callie looked at the man she had been married to and she accidently smiled for a second.
-I have an appointment in an hour if you want to come.
-Really?

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The appointment had went well. Dr. Bingley had messured the baby's neck and it hadn't indicated any cromosone changes. George had been quiet during the ultra sound as if he was afraid to even breath, but afterwards he had asked a few questions and Callie didn't know what to make out of it all. But she had seen her baby again, and she had fallen in love. She couldn't belive that a little mass of cells could have that impact on her. But this little featus wasn't any featus. It was her featus.
George had asked if he could tell his mother and she didn't mind. In one way she wanted to screem on the top of her lungs and tell the world what was happening, but on the other hand she knew too well of all the complication that could arise.

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This far her workday had been hectic but now she had a thirty minutes to spare (that is if nothing unexpected happened) just when Mark arrived.
-Hey sunshine. Hungry?
-You wouldn't belive... what do you have?
- You'll have to wait my dear.
-Sunshine? My Dear? What's with you?
-Nothing, just happy in general.
-You've had some!
-Why do you think that. Can't a man be happy without sex having anything to do with it?
-A man maybe, but not you.
They entered a conference room and Mark started to unpack his bags. He had made paella (or bought she didn't care).
-You know what? Mark said and unpacked a milk carton. Today I had milk with my lunch instead of water and I loved it.
-Really. Mark the milkman....Callie couldnät help laughing.

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-What's with them? Alex asked Meredith looking through the conferensrooms windows.
-I don't know but they seem happy. Meredith answered. At least in this one Callie has the uppe hand.
-What are you talking about? He's a dog.
-Can't you see it?

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*ooo* This is getting good!! :D

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It was time for their first counseling session. Callie was extremely nervous but didn’t know why. She had nothing to be ashamed of. Was she nervous of George’s reaction to what she wanted to say or was she nervous of how she would react to anything George would say? She didn’t know.
The last few days had went by quickly; she had spoken to George several times over the phone and received a card from Mrs. O’Malley with warm words that she kept reading over and over again.
Callie had cooked for Cristina and herself but somehow Mark had invited himself over twice.

There was a knock on the door and Callie gathered her thoughts.
-Hi, I thought I’d pick you up.
It was George and Callie nodded.
-I just have to go before we go, come in…
He closed the door behind her and looked around in his ex-wife’s apartment. He could see into the kitchen and in to the living room. It looked cozy, but somehow it made him uneasy, like he shouldn’t be here.
-I’m ready. Let’s do this. Callie said while putting on her jacket.

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When they had parked George sat still for a moment and Callie gave him a puzzled look.
-What’s wrong?
-I…..George took a deep breath. I’m just a bit nervous that’s all.
He opened the door but paused when he heard Callie giggling.
-What’s so funny? He said a bit annoyed.
-Nothing, it’s just that I am nervous. And I don’t even know why.
-I know why I’m nervous though. Come, let’s go.

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The session started with questions such as why they were there and how they’ve met etc. The therapist acted as if it was the most common thing in this world that people married their girlfriend - that they’ve known for only a few months - in Las Vegas a week after their fathers died and then to be unfaithful and divorce her three months later. Callie didn’t know what to think and she looked at George who nodded like he understood what she was thinking. But then Dr. Jones changed his attitude and looked at George and said:
- Dr O’Malley. If you go back to the night that you proposed to Dr. Torres. What lead up to this? And I don’t want you to give me the thoughts you’ve been thinking since your divorce I want to know what made you propose then.
- I had seen her a lot since the death of my father. Whenever she wasn’t with me I felt alone and the grief grow bigger. That night before she had left abruptly and I was afraid that my actions when we were together the first time had, I don’t know, damaged the possibilities of any real relationship with her, and I felt that I had to do what I didn’t then – Show her how much she meant to me.

Callie was speechless, she felt so many feelings that she couldn’t make out what was what.
- What were you thinking then?
Both men in the room looked at Callie and she could feel the tears welling up in her eyes, but she had to answer, she had to do everything right for her baby.
- I was chocked. I didn’t know what to think. He was so sincere and I had forced myself to not hope for anything except the kind of relationship we’ve had before.
- What kind of relationship was that?
- I loved him. I was head over heels in love with this sweet man that didn’t love me back and that preferred to be with his friends instead of me and put them and their needs above me and mine.
- How did that make you feel?
- Like hell. I broke up with him – which he didn’t even notice. I tried to get over him but it didn’t work. I think I would’ve done anything…..
- What did you do?
- I slept with Mark.
Callie paused and looked at the floor. The tears had somehow dissapeard but there was still a lump in her chest. Dr Jones looked at George and asked:
- Did you know this?
- Yes, I knew.
- What was your reaction?
Callie had always wondered how he found out. When they got back together they had avoided the subject and she had asked Mark now that they were friends and he swore that he hadn’t said anything.
- I thaught he was lying.
- Who?
- I was on a camping trip with some friends and Burke asked me how things were going with Callie and I said that things were good, she just didn’t know it yet. Then Alex that jackass told me that she had been sleeping with Sloan.
- Mark?
- The same. I told him to take it back, and we fought.
He had fought for her? I really don’t know this man, Callie thought.
- Did you confront her?
- Not really. I was going to but when I saw her she told me my father was in the hospital so….. then I was sad and felt betrayed, but I got mad instead. It was only one week after that, when my father died, and she was there and I forgave her because I could see that she genuinely cared about me.
- What were you thinking during this Dr Torres?
- I loved him. His father was sick and I wanted to be there for him. That’s what I was thinking.
- Dr. O’Malley. I want you to answer truthfully even though it may be hard to say, and harder for Dr Torres to hear, but when it comes to the proposal, would you, with the knowledge you have today, have done it over again.
Callie held her breath. This was going to be painful. George didn’t say anything for a few seconds. He looked at Callie, and at Dr Jones.
- Yes. I would have proposed but I wouldn’t have agreed to get married so quickly.
- And what would you Dr. Torres, with what you know today, have answered?
- Yes. I’d probably not acted on my impulse that I had to get married right away though, and I guess I would’ve placed all the cards on the table at once.
- Like?
- Who my parents were and what my background is.
- I see. During this session you Dr Torres have mentioned love several time where as Dr O’Malley haven’t. Is there a reason to that Dr O’Malley?
- I don’t use love a lot in general. I loved Callie. I think she knows that.
- Do you?
Dr Jones looked at her and she know she was blushing which was something she didn’t do a lot.
- I know that he wouldn’t say it If he didn’t mean it, and he said it, but knowing what he did and all this I sure have doubted it.

Then George took her hand. Callie almost took hers away but much to her own surprise she squeezed his and they remained holding hands for the rest of the session.
When Dr Jones said that their time was up they abruptly let go and acted as if they were embarrassed that they had felt comfort in holding each other’s hands.

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THIS is what needs to happen with George and Callie! Nice job :)

I love it, Mactilda. I like that there is a possibility for them to at least be friends and such. And I LOVED how you filled in what they were feeling and thinking over their relationship! Yay!!